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Happy New Year everyone!
A big 2009
:O

Deux mille neuf

2009 is a few days away and guess what?! I'm not going to school anymore. While students are prancing through the hall ways I would probably be at home sleeping or going out with my friends.
Till the day my results will come out, I will utilize every second to my fullest. It's been 11 years of going to school, meeting school friends, eating at the canteen, wearing school uniform, I can't belief time flies so fast. Usually my new years resolution would have something to do with school, but since I won't be going to school, I have nooo idea what to do. Except, lose some weight. That's it! I think I'll be visiting my school annually and come meet my juniors once in a while. I'm turning 18 next year. I don't know why I'm making such a big deal out of this, but it feels weird. I'm so used to acting like a kid and making minor decisions. I know, most teenagers can't wait to turn 18 or become a full grown adult, but the responsibility is bigger and there are more obstacles to face.
So I guess that's how it is.
I think my new years resolutions (2009) would be:
1. Lose some weight
2. Stop procrastinating
3. Manage time properly
4. Increase my photographic skills
5. Be more adventurous/ be more daring
6. Put 110% effort whenever doing ANYTHING
7. Be more creative
8. Draw more
9. Be more tidy
10. Don't be scared :D

Paper.Box.Couture.

My very close friend has launched a blogshop called Paper.Box.Couture.
The items are ouh-so-adorable. It's still new and the first few 10 customers will get something special! So better hurry up before it ends.
Here's a bit of a sneak peak of what they're selling.

So, chchchchchcheck it out! :)

Hello hello,
Here I am contemplating what to do, what to get INTO college. It's harder than I would've imagined. I was so passionate about becoming a zoologist or an environmental biology. BUT THEN, my job opportunity is very very low. My other option is taking graphics design. I know, the courses are not similar AT ALL. Science and arts. Honestly, my choice is into graphics. More job opportunities and I would not have a financial burden. Sometimes I wonder, the passion of loving your job is very crucial. Although, for some people, being passionate is great but once the job offers are low and your salary is horrible, you will eventually hate your job because you are forced to live in a very run-down life. Which I do not want that to happen. I used to say money is not important, but to think of it. It is very very very very important. It's the root of all evil let me tell you that. If I don't have enough money, I won't have enough to pay rent, buy groceries, pay for transportation, FOOD and the list goes on... To top it all of, I my mom will feel ill at ease looking at her children suffering. So the amount of guilt will increase.
So yes, I think graphics is okay financially, AND I like it too, A LOT! :D
OUH YEAAAAA, the course is cheaper too, rather than zoology or environmental biology.

I'm back for another blog posting. :)
Well, after coming back from I went pre- prom shopping with my friends. Well i was basically accompanying them buying some socks or whatever.
The next day was PROM.
Let me tell you this there were only 60 people. 60! I was speechless.
It was held at One World. A small function room. So it could fit about 6 tables, a dance floor, one medium sized stage to fit all the band instruments, buffet tables and a little more space for people to walk. OUH YEAHH, a dj table at the side too.
Anyways, I had fun and I was really dancing like a monkey. People were puzzled whenever looking at me, because they have never seen me dance, jump or act crazy
It didn't matter I had fun with my friends.
So prom was quite ok.

Anywayyyys, I'll continue later. I want to sleep :)

Singapore trip

It's been more than 2 weeks since my last post.
That's quite long actually.
Well I came back from Singapore about a week ago. Singapore was a good trip. Although, I wasn't fond of the food. It was too crowded and most restaurants were catered for people who AREN'T Muslims. Sooo, you get it right?
I was with Shaira's family during the whole trip. Around 20++ people came. We conquered the whole bus except for one person. He was friendly though.
The day we arrived, we went to her relatives house and ate a home cooked meal. It was simply scrumptious.
The next day, I shopped for some shoes, cardigan, and a few other necessities.
My mom was hesitant to buy anything. So, i felt guilty. Even though, she reassured me that it was ok me buying those things and her not buying anything, I still felt guilty.
She bought me my prom dress at banana republic. Ooooh, it's just gorgeous. It's a one strap purple short dress, well below my knee though. It's silk, so it's really smooth and comfy.
The dress is quite pricey. It was discounted 40% because my mom had the visa credit card. Well it was 30% off but with the credit card, they gave another 10%.
The next morning, my mom had to fly back to KL because of my brothers graduation. So she left me for two days.
I wanted to go to my brothers graduation ceremony, but there was only two empty seats, and if they were to add me, they would've paid more. So my mom wanted to save some money. So instead, she left me.
I was okay though. Amalina moved into my room. So it was fun talking till late at night.
The day my mom left me ;P I went to a tahlil, at Shaira's relatives house. We came a bit late, but just in time to baca doa for their late grandfather and a few other relatives.
After that, we ate rice. The lauk was undeniably fantastic!
When coming back, they shopped for some more things. I tagged along of course. I didn't buy anything because I was saving the money my mom gave me (in case of emergencies) So if I were to spend it, I would feel the biggest guilt ever! So it was best for me not to spend it at all.
At the end, I did regret not buying a few things. That had a great discount and I had enough money to buy it.
Anyways, I'm still happy with what I got and my sister is already borrowing some of it.
Well I'm back from Singapore and It's been a week already.
Well toodles, I'mma gonna write another post. :)

Lui

I somewhat never imagined being cared for this much.
Plus, I have never, repeat NEVER been treated this way. Maybe for a month then after that being treated like shit.
It's touching knowing that somewhere out there, there's always a person who's there for you no matter what.
I'm glad knowing him now, because so far it's been great. :)
I have experienced a lot when being with him, a total different atmosphere, but I'm adapting.
It's fun actually. He cracked the shell, that I did not want to get out of. He made me open up easily. I realized, I'll feel that tingle on my back when thinking about it.
Seriously, It's lame to say, but I could be the happiest and luckiest girl on earth.
It's lame I know, but so what! This is what i feel. It's weird cause I have never ever ever ever ever ever had this feeling before.
I mean, It's not like i get to meet him everyday. He lives far away from where I'm staying, really far.
Sometimes you can criticize it after you have felt it. I take back what I have said. It does feel good. You can't describe the feeling once you've experienced it.
I mean, He's different in a good way. I don't usually say this about guys, so I'm actually serious. I can't say of course that, it's gonna stay the same forever. There will be times where it's excruciating and intolerable. I bet I'll be a pain in the ass too. Not everyone can look like a robot being so perfect without problems. But of course, you have to solve problems first not jump to conclusion. That is stupid, assuming everything without knowing anything.
I'm human not an alien robot from the planet Pluto(that does not exist)
Sometimes those martial art masters say "catch the fly before it flies" (ok i'm not really sure i'm sort of making this up, but well who cares it sounds something like that)
So what I'm trying to sort of say is, if you have found that person grab a hold of him and try to work it out and stay, not take him then flirt with some dude that finds you attractive. Well that's called cheating.
Ooooooh, this is long ahah.
Well that's it I guess. It's been a while since my last post.
Toodles :)

:D

;)

SPM is finally over! I have been waiting for this time to come since the past few months of hectic tuition and exams. Loving every second of it.
I still can't imagine, a life without waiting in line during assembly, wearing school uniform. It does sound scary when thinking about stepping into the 'real' world. More challenges, more toleration, well the list goes on and on. I have planned so many things, but MY head is so blank, I don't even know where to start.

I want to master guitar hero 4 drums, and rockband expert. Yes, I don't have a life but who cares! No one can stop me from sleeping late or playing a game till my hand hurts.
Well off to do nothing now! so toodles. :)

It's About Time!

7 down 4 more to go!

2 weeks, gosh that was short. I think I’ll be the first to say “WOOHOO!” after she says masa sudah tamat. I’ll be the first to jump run shout hug kiss fly and swim. Ahah I can’t wat. I have loads of things to do. *smirking*

You know what, add math was a shocker for me but heck, it’s over anyways. Now, I have biology, physics, French and est. Let me repeat 4 more to go! In a week! I just finished Chemistry and I am quite relieved but I like chemistry.

I think the dudes are falling head over heels with one of the pengawas lady. Yeah, well she’s pretty, but not when she wears blusher sampai nak kene her ears. She likes to smile though, and her shoe is to die for. It’s so cantik, I think she knows that every girl present in that hall loves looking at her shoe. Well now I know why she likes wearing it everyday. Well it’s nice I wonder where she bought it. Hmmmmmmm??

All I can say, SPM is special. You get special treatment that you can totally take advantage of. My mom and sister will do anything to make me happy. I can eat wherever I want, I can buy clothes or shoes, I can mandi lama lama in the toilet. Yep, I’m spoiled but well Spm is almost over and I don’t think they’ll spoil me anymore. Pity.

Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh OHHHHHHH!!!!!!! My beloved sister bought guitar hero 4! And Rockband 2! Hell yeah! Well I played a biiiiiit. Couldn’t help myself, it’s so tempting. Drums from GH4 is so different and I was so confused playing it. BUT! I love it! I shall play PS3 sampai tak tidur. I have so many games to play. So many movies to watch, so many songs to download, so many things to buy, so many places to go, so many people to hangout with(well not that many), and so many shows to watch and download. Well the list goes on.

I have very little tuition now. I feel so relaxed now. I have less things to read. Finally!

Well Off to my nerdy duties. Biology is calling me. Ouh how I wish I can ignore it.

Screw it

Tuition everyday. after school till night. MY brain is absorbing A LOT of information. Stressful
but well prioritize! SPM first.

My face will look haggard-ish and old and tired and worn OUT.
I bet i'll look really ugly after spm.

I need to refresh my brain, withh SMOOTHIES! ahha
Ok, i'm going off. my brain can't take it anymore.

Happy Mix

Happy Mix:

Close your eyes and listen. Listen to things that you won't notice. A beat, A word, The melody, The voice.

Interesting really..

Fallen Snow: Au revoir Simone

All my loving: The Beatles

Still Fighting it: Ben folds

Magic: Ben Kweller

Keep an Open mind: Captain

California bound: Carolina Liar

Mr Blue: Catherine Feeny

Happy Bidet: The Consumer Goods

Happy Together: Five O’Clock Heroes

Merry Happy: Kate Nash

Electric Ladyland: Fantastic Plastic Machine

I feel It All: Feist

New York Chinese Laundry: Five O’Clock Heroes

Island In the Sun: Weezer

Alright: Supergrass

Look up: Stars

Open Your eyes: Snow Patrol

Ghost Under Rocks: Ra Ra Riot

Hey Ya! : OutKast

Someone who loves you: Walter the orange Ocean

Bonsoir!

Time is flying my heart beating faster as SPM is getting closer.
I can feel a chill tingling through my back. It’s eerie. Let’s see I have 43 days to SPM, 43!
Less than 2 months for sure. I’m not prepared, I don’t have the confidence answering the questions except that biology essay question I loved so much. Bon, I’m sitting here NOT studying. Ouh god, I have pre exam jitters, I suddenly feel woozy and uncomfortable. C’est tres bizarre.

Well, Raya is just around the corner. Well they’re checking the ‘anak bulan’ today. IF the moon’s big and bright, raya is tomorrow! Well don’t know bout that. Don’t think so. I bought my baju raya, let’s just say it’s like a bzzz bee. Ahha
BUT! I still want that red shoe. THAT RED SHOE! I feel so unsatisfied with what I got. I only have one pair of shoe. My sister has 5! Ouh wait 6!

Sigh, I sound like a spoiled brat. I should be thankful. Some people can’t even celebrate raya or even afford anything to buy for raya, and here I am complaining. Well ,

Maaf Zahir dan Batin!

I won’t be able to celebrate raya like usual, cause of SPM. I would be occupied with studying and busy suffocating myself with books and papers. That sounds fun. I’m taking 11 subjects all together.
1. BM
2. English
3. EST
4. Sejarah
5. Agama
6. Mathematics
7. Add Math
8. Biology
9. Chemistry
10. Physics
11. French

I just can’t wait to celebrate AFTER SPM. I have loads of things to do. I actually have a list of things to do. Can’t wait to release all the pressure and post jitters out of my system.

I realized when I was shopping at pavilion yesterday. All the dudes look alike. They wore the same clothes almost the same brand. Most of them aren’t original . Ouh! They also walk the same way. I accidently made fun of them, in front of their faces sort of with my brother. Astaughfirullah. I didn’t mean too.

I have a lot to say but not enough time to write. I’ll continue blogging frequently insyallah after SPM.

Well I’m signing off. Again, I want to study.
Toodles ;)

Selamat Hari Merdeka!

Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!

I wish you all a Happy Merdeka.
It has been 51 years of independence.

Again, Selamat hari merdeka. :D

A little history about Malaysia and how it BECAME what it is today:
Merdeka!

MEN

Egoistic men seem to not understand the art of respecting women. They take women for granted and the only thing that would make them satisfied is physical appearance. It sounds revolting and outright brainless. I don’t know why they find that so entertaining. “Most” men seem to think things in a one-dimensional perspective when it comes to girls or women. I think sometimes guys don’t take the situation seriously. It’s as if girls are treated like a piece of meat. Not to be sexist, it’s not fair for us girls to be treated in such a way. It’s degrading. Girls should be treated equally with at least a bit of respect. Well I probably understand that men mature slowly and that is probably the reason why. Some guys respect women. What I think is that guys that respect their mothers would probably respect girls that are around them. Well I know some guys that are like that; but some of them of course are influenced by friends that brainwash them to not respect girls.

I can’t be choosy obviously. I’ll eventually end up with someone like that; but what are we to do. Guys only have one desire. Unlike girls we have many; but you see some girls can control their desire. Guys only have one and they tend to concentrate on that. That “one” desire can be used properly. Apparently, most guys abuse the one desire that they have.

Sometimes when I dress up just for that one guy, I would have to think again. This Is because I won’t know if he’ll admire me because of my looks OR because of what’s inside. So guys have to think about that. It’s better looking at a girls inner self, not outer.

I know that all this it’s as if I’m generalizing men; but some of you guys have to admit it’s true. Of course there are girls that treat guys like shit; but I’m just writing my point of view.

No intentions to demean men.

This is called a list of what i'm thinking:

1. I am actually 17 years old.
2. SPM is another few more months < 5
3. Trials is another 20 days
4. Honestly, I have 2 strands of 'grey' hair
5. I'm going to college soon
5. PLKN
6. Friend being obsessed with another gender
7. My mom not paying for my college fee if i mess up one sem (cause of my brother)
8. The price of gas
9. Me not being able to drive because of the price of gas
10. Me not being able to wear some clothes that i want to wear
11. Friends that i see (almost) everyday at school
12. Grilled salmon
13. Prom night
14. What song am i gonna play for prom night
15. The price of my dress well my outfit
16. The bulge that i have in the middle section of my body
17. The song that I am listening too is quite interesting
18. Wondering how minestrone dump soup would taste like
19. My hair
20. The Olympics
21. People with nice hair walking around like they're all that.
22. Amelie
23. Should i eat koko krunch or not.
24. Why do people refer 'speaking' means talking in english
25. Can i play the guitar like john mayer
26. The trip to the salon today
27. Rockband
28. I have to sing during prom night
29. This list is BORING
30. I'm lazy

PLKN

AAaaaaah! Nightmare after SPM. We, students of 2008 will be sent to PLKN. The results came out yesterday and luckily I didn't get in. BUT I'm not sure. It's possible if they send me for the second or third batch. DAMMNIT! i'll have to post pone my college. PLKN is a waste of time and my college will be held back. All you do is marching, playing ping pong, shooting and etc... I can do better things than all that for 3 months. My education will be delayed for 3 months! How Inconsiderate are they. I don't understand the governments aim towards students like us, to go for useless camps and so on. They randomly choose a few students from each school but 'anak menteri' is an exeption, THEY of ALL people should go. It's truly not fair. We have a future and it does not include PLKN. I am not pleased at all. Although I wasn't chosen but there is a possibllity for them to choose me for the other batches. There have been cases that girls were raped and one of them was paralised for doing 50 push ups. How insensitive they are, it's not like the government will care.

As for now, I wasn't accepted in but I must not put my hopes to high.