Thursday, November 29, 2007

Teens. ouh please.

Materialistic things aren't important, unless you work with a fashion magazine or whatever; but still! There are other things in life, which should be focused ON. I have a group of friends, which are acting like some grown adult; but still thinks like a child. Competing each other, with their clothes, the accessories, the face complexion, the body, the face. ENOUGH! ok. It's annoying. Doesn't it occur to you that, there are kids dying, trying to get FOOD, or CLOTHES. you spent a whole lot of money for all those crap. You could have spend it on donations. At least you dapat pahala. Which is counted when you die. Don't you have a sense of generosity.

I can't explain why girls around my age, preteens. Go out with people they don't know. Plus, they are not raised in the city. They would be willingly enough to go out and get attention from people they don't know. They are still naive no matter how old they are. I would even consider MYself as a naive girl. She doesn't have enough knowledge to protect herself. She could end up regretting, and live in a life of lies. I'm worried. She's like my little sister. I wouldn't want anything to happen to her.

Well that's it for now. ;)

Saturday, November 17, 2007


Tears rolling through my cheeks,
My heart beating so fast,
The feeling of doubt possibly conquering my mind,
Till everything is a blur,
My mind feels guilty ,
Which is the cause of assumption,
My stomach tied in knots,
Not able to breath ,
I could say dealing with a problem of mistreating someone,
I may be wrong,
But It's related to feelings of a person I care,
I don't know where to start,
How to say sorry,
But my selfishness is hoping not to get scolded like hell,
I earned it and I should face the truth,
Giving the silent treatment is not the answer,
Making me feel uncomfortable around you,
Not able to say anything,
I wish time could rewind ,
Like a small remote control,
But what has been done is done,
I prayed to god to make the day cheerful,
But I have a feeling it won't really happen,
Well my instincts say it is,
Why must I not act responsibly ,
I know she's worried,
And I understand,
And I know I did wrong,
Just shut up and listen.

Friday, November 16, 2007

Evil Spending.

Money is a crucial element in life; but it can make you selfish and egoistic. Of course everyone wants to spend on a few things, but you have to balance yourself and realize spending can be evil. When you have financial problems, you should get help fast; but most of them are too proud, they still continue with their stupid habits. You effect people around you and add more problems to yourself. It sucks ok! Especially if your related to that person. It emotionally hurts to hear that from your own relative. It can be the pain in the ass but sometimes you have the urge to help, but you know you can't. Firstly, you have a family to take care of. Secondly, We're not rich. Thirdly, it's a bit too much to give. Fourthly, ok theres no four; but i think thats enough reasons.
You should find financial help. seriously. You have relatives that can help your financial problems.
But don't go asking for more money. We care. :)

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Normal problems; Normal teenage girl.

I have so many issues; I don't know where to begin.
Although, my problems aren't serious.
I don't like keeping it in my head. Okay;
I have friends which are really materialistic, I mean hey! thats normal for a teenage girl in this century. But, I can't bring myself to tell them to stop competing against each other. Whose nicer, whose cooler, whose more fashionable, whose more pretty. STOP it! it's stupid and annoying. Ok i won't mind if you do it amongst yourself, but you are effecting other people. You even try competing with me. Like wth? I'm pulled into your problem; and I get so engrossed with it. I regret doing all the crap that i have done or said anything stupid. I'm not blaming you 100%, i'm also blaming myself. Just stop it, please.

Another problem, It's like any other problem, a teenage girl is going through;
I know I'm infatuated with this guy but I give up very easily. Plus, I'm sensitive too. I walked home with this guy i liked and i thought it went well; but to think of it. I didn't really talk much cause his friend was there. I was shy, thats my problem. I can't overcome my shyness. I like talking to him. Okay, after that; I said thank you, but he didn't reply. I'm worried if i sounded desperate or whatever. I'm not; f.y.i. I can't control myself sometimes. I'm confusing myself. Sometimes, i ask myself to not talk to him cause it will sound that i am desperate; and then, i'll say talk to him, cause then i'll lose him and i wasted my opportunity. So wth am i supposed to do!
Other than that, It's possible if a guy likes a girl even though she has a boyfriend, but he won't do anything, until they break up. I mean it is possible. He is close to my friend which is also his friend. My friend is with my crushes friend. So my crush is friends with both of them. Maybe i'm making you more confused. Other than that, She likes talking to him, and she is closer to him. Which makes me jealous. I won't say anything, of course; i won't pick a guy over a friend.

My other friends aren't comfortable with my other friends. Which makes me stuck in between. I make myself stressed out. I don't like it. I wonder if i suddenly be lonely. With no friends. I think I'll die. The things i talk about is just me stressed out; being pessimistic.

I have more to talk about. But those were the main problems in my head.

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

Oh life can be strange
Good and bad in so many ways
And in time you will find
That things are not always what they seem

Well i've got something to say
But you might laugh, joke or run away
Coz i'm awkward and nervous
Sometimes i dont say much at all

But if the rain must fall
If i lose it all
If the world comes down and takes my soul
If the sky turns black
And theres no no way back
It won't matter much to me
If i had you
All i need is your love
That's all i need
All i need is your love

Oh well dreams can come true
if you know inside you really want them to or you can sit you can wait
You can leave your fate in someone elses hands
Oh but I, I want you
And nothing else can make me feel the way you do
So i'm waiting, i'm wishing
That it's me you'll be holding tonight and every night

This song makes my body tingle. It's so sweet, and it calms you down. Hope everyone likes it. :)

Fly me to the moon
Let me sing among those stars
Let me see what spring is like
On jupiter and mars

In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby kiss me

Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

A classic! Nice song for a stressful day. ;)